Current mood: upset... confused...

Current music: none

Current attire: black shirt and pink pj pants

why is the world the way it is? ok so yea, my mom's having financial problems... but she was so close to getting them taken care of... I mean seriously... weeks away from it... she was a couple of months behind paying her truck note... she just made a payment 2 weeks ago and was gonna make another once she got paid this week... which would have only made her like a month behind... what can i say she didnt have a job for the longest while... but yea... with no notice whatsoever they showed up and took her truck... so yea... its all effed up now... everythings effed up... see now she's talkin about selling the trailer and all of our stuff and her and Brady move into mawmaw's... and she said i'd have to make up with my dad and move back in over there... and you see i refuse to live there... even if we do make up... so I guess I'll just live out of my car until I can find a place to rent... me and a friend or two can find a place probably... sure we'll be tight, but we'll survive... and mom talked about maybe renting this place out instead of selling... i offered to find a few friends to come live and we could rent from her, that way she wouldnt lose the place and she could have it back as soon as she got back on her feet... well... she said that we wouldnt be able to pay her what she needed... hello, cut off the phoneline, thats that much less we'll have to pay, utilities arent but a couple hundred at most a month... she's worried about having to redo the bathroom, we've got the floor ripped up right now in one of the bathrooms because the floor rotted because the tub has a crack in it... hello, we'll live! in her bathroom theres a tub and a shower stall... and the toilet and sink are fine in both bathrooms... we could at least yank up the tub, put the new floors down, and leave as is until we can buy a new tub... yea at first until we get our finances managed we might not be able to pay her as much as she's like, but once i start working more and once we all get our finances straight we could pay her ya know $400-500 a month, maybe even more! we could do it... and like i said, then she'd be able to have it back if she wants it when she gets back on her feet.... I'd say that isnt half bad... I dunno what you would think about it... I'll talk to her about it again if she gets serious about it...

yea and then after they took the truck someone called mawmaw and told her... mom's really upset about that.... i am too... like they didnt even give mom a chance to tell her mother herself... and then mawmaw has been sick lately... she has cancer... hello! stupid people, why are you gonna upset her about this?! Mawmaw offered to let mom use pawpaw's truck, but mom said no... he needs his truck... they have 2 vehicles, but like mom said, there are some things he cant do in the car...

why are people so hateful... so spiteful about things... grr...