i want to write a story of some sort... a story from one of the many daydreams i have... they're quite sweet and sappy actually... full of mysterious happenings... I've been in the mood lately to change myself yet again. I want to still be Rachel... but i want to be a sweet, quiet girl with lots of dreams in her mind... i want to quit being do hardheaded... I'm getting tired of losing every guy i have ever cared about because of the way i am now... i have decided i am going to work on becoming who i have always wanted to be... maybe then i can be happy........................